It feels I don’t need to say anything more to anyone then a Hi and asking simple questions like How are you? Because it feels like these conversations are like a merry-go-round. Over and over again. It doesn’t expand any more then that. It starts back up again.
I was up at 4 or something to finish my last part of my homework. I went back to bed around 6:40. ( Because I only had 4 hours of sleep.) I was drifting in and out of sleep because I had a lot of things on my mind and I when I fell asleep I end waking up trying to finish my thoughts. When I found myself like actually asleep i was like in a dream man. I thought to myself, I want to control it and see what happens. Don’t laugh but like, it was freakin Dragon Ball Z. I controlled this character who was flying. I end up waking up. My body was heavy. It felt like I was trapped. I was scared man. I couldn’t speak. I was paralyzed. I wanted to yell for my parents for help but I couldn’t. I thought I was fucking possessed or some shit. It felt like someone was holding me down. I was telling myself to move. My breaths became irregular. I could only stare at the side of my room. I was like move Rachel. I couldn’t. I said wake up. I didn’t wake up. Move. Do whatever. After it felt like something lifted off of me I was like freakin shaking man. But yeah, it made me really depressed because I thought I would stay like that forever. That no one would help me. It’s fine now. I’m just not going back to sleep. And yup, I searched it up. It was sleep paralysis.
They are not just there just to sell their products. They are there to shape us into what our realities are. For an example. A Neutrogena concealer cream advertisement claims, ” The cream hides the flaws. The powder hides the cream. So you have nothing to hide.”
They tell us that we should have a pretty face,fair skin, no blemishes, no imperfections. They are putting this into our mind to believe that is how people should look. How things are right and wrong. I never saw an advertisement where there was a girl with bad skin in an advertisement except in a before and after. I will never thought of advertising like that until this year.
The awkward moment when you laugh at something you overheard in class and everyone turns around to look at you. It lasts for 2 seconds and it felt like they stared at you for 5 seconds. Then they look forward and they go back to normal. Ugh, I need to stop laughing at the stuff that aren’t meant to be laughed at for a long time.
Are you fucking shitting me? Seriously?
I’m way overdue. If I stop putting things off, I would be happier. All I do is sit on my fat ass. If my ass wasn’t fat I would be happier. I wouldn’t have to wear these shirts with the tails out all the time. Like that’s fooling anyone. Fat ass. I should start jogging again. Five miles a day. Really do it this time. Maybe rock climbing. I need to turn my life around. What do I need to do? I need to fall in love. I need to have a girlfriend. I need to read more, improve myself. What if I learned Russian or something? Or took up an instrument? I could speak Chinese. That would be cool.
Just be real. Confident. Isn’t that what women are attracted to? Men don’t have to be attractive. But that’s not true. Especially these days. Almost as much pressure on men as there is on women these days. Why should I be made to feel I have to apologize for my existence? Maybe it’s my brain chemistry. Maybe that’s what’s wrong with me. Bad chemistry. All my problems and anxiety can be reduced to a chemical imbalance or some kind of misfiring synapses. I need to get help for that. But I’ll still be ugly though. Nothing’s gonna change that.” —adaption 2002 (film)
I got some at Target and I’m psyched to use them for my IB art class. I haven’t watercolored ever since I was a child. I want to use them properly now. =D
That’s depressing after reading that from a manga.
I watched the Place Promised in Our Early Days.
People respond sarcastic remarks and the followers join in saying, ” Wow, fail..” I just wanted a serious answer haha. Anyways, I’m just going to unfollow people who pull shit off like that. I don’t need people like them to put me down haha. I just lost respect for them.
You can answer however you like but please just think what would the person feel who asked the question. They genuinely wanted to know. If they ask something perverted. Don’t answer. Ignore. If they ask a question that’s already in your FAQ. Don’t answer. Ignore. I think if you ignore they will stop with their antics if they don’t get a reaction.